2005-12-10: 11:11 a.m.

You really, really don't have to say sorry for anything, cos you've done absolutely nth you should be sorry for. If there's anyone that should be sorry, I guess it's me... Cos i failed to see things from your perspective. Failed to realise how you'd feel after all this...
I know things have changed. What I did, what I said to you... they're irrevocable now. It's no use pretending things are the way they were before, back when things were simpler.
Reading your blog, I think I've gotten the answer I was looking for. You're right, if it's out of guilt or gratitude, then I'd be happy to let go. Back off. Fade away... because it just wouldn't be true. Don't say yes, because then neither of us would find what we were looking for.
I think we both need time. And space. If there's anything you want to know, I'll be glad to give you the answers.
Till then, zhu ni xing fu. That's all that matters... Follow your heart, and whatever your decision is I promise to respect it, and support you through it no matter what.